fuck...

the boy broke up with me...

i'm not the person he sees himself married to, apparently...

i'm so upset by this that my body rebelled and had some breakthrough bleeding in the middle of my cycle....my doctor has given me some xanax for the stress...hopefully i can sleep tonight without the ritual sobfest...

dammit i feel so lost right now. i saw us having a future together...

he still wants to be friends...and i can't possibly hate him...but it hurts so damn much right now that i don't know what to do with myself.

is there anyone out there still reading this?

does anybody care?

*sigh*

goodnight.